ευθανασία -ευ, eu, “good”, θανατος, thanatos, “death”

Feeling kinda weird when everybody off to work in the morning and I’m still on my bed half-dead. I forced myself to get up from the bed, take a very quick shower, put on my track suit and start to jog. After the PTD Unggul Module in September, I remember than I can jog for about 20 minutes without feeling ‘pancit’, but now damn, I just did one lap and I’m already felt exhausted. It is so obvious what cigarattes can do to your health.

I spent most of my morning packing the stuff I would need throughout DPA. I got myself 8 pairs of white long sleeves shirts and other thing that I think important. Not like other people, they would buy 3 or 4 white collar t-shirt or buy a new back pack, or a sun block cream, or other things, I just gonna bring whatever that I have cause that I believe in being economically safe.

Actually, I’m not in the mood of writing this right now, I’m just writing for the sake of updating my blog.. Bla bla bla… Cannot wait for my DPA.. to see all of my fellow PTDs and how we will rock the DPA like no others. The bond that we have between us is remarkable and I think no even the new UDPA Regime will break us down. Sounds quite ‘poyo’ isn’t it, but thats the fact.

For now, I’m just going to enjoy the 6 months there in INTAN. Sayonara!

There’s a reason why Allah creates night, it is for us to sleep.. Simple. Researches made by every geniuses on this earth shown that we, humans, should sleep for an average of 8 hours everyday. Meaning that, you still got 16 hours more to do whatever that you want to do. Well, last night I slept at 4.30 am and got up at 6.30 am. Just imagine two hours of sleep and today I have to work for 8 hours. God, it sounds so suck! But as I am what I am, it is not much of a problem to me.

2 more weeks to go before I’m leaving the office for 6 months. I still do not know what to expect during those 6 months, but hopefully it will be something to be remember. I always wish that I could turn back the time where I still can wakes up at 6.30 in the morning on my bed in my dormitory, takes a very cold shower, solat and wearing my white school uniform with a red tie that has Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman written on it. Walking down the corridor with pride, scolding at juniors, having my breakfast in the dining hall with the rest of my soul colleagues before heading to the school assembly at the basketball court near Academic Block.

It is just a very weird feeling to say the most when you talk about school. I still remember during my school days, I always wish that I can graduate from this school, go to the college for 5 years before starts working as somebody. But now, when I think about it again and again, I really wish that I could go back to the time when I was in Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman, being in the one of the most famous school in Malaysia. How proud I am to say that I am a STAROBA ( Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman Old Boys Association).

Nowadays, most of the class of 98 (38^th Generation of Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman) still seeing each other twice each month. We will hang out, playing futsal in Sports Planet Subang Grand and have a drink or two at Bidara Bandar Sunway. We will talks about everything, from the time that we all are still together sleeping, eating, playing in school to what we have achieved and don’t achieve in life. We still take pride in our school and also each other. Most of us are successful as a person, having a great job and some already married and with kids. While, majority are engineers in multinational companies, some are doctor, pilots, accountants, lawyers and not to forget PTDs. Those are the products of Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman, Ipoh.

I would say that is all for now. I’m neither a good writer nor a good writer with a good conclusion. So, sayonara.

It is nice to be here in the office doing nothing except for reading my emails and pretending that I have a lot of work to do. Not expecting the worst, my computer jammed!!! What a stupid piece of shit!! I feel like throwing the computer straight out from the window. I can’t stop cursing at that time.

But of course, I start to have a thought “What are you doing silly, you are IT graduate. Just fix it yourselves”. Yeah I can do that, IF I HAD ALL THE THINGS THAT I NEED SUCH AS THE BOOTABLE CD.

Eventually, I called the IT Division and DEMANDS that they fix my PC before I start to get pissed off again. How cruel can that be.. She just a clerk, not the technician fool!! Okay, I’m so sorry my dear… “Can you send someone here to repair my precious little obsolete PC? If you can do that, it would be so kind of you.” OK , sir. We can arrange that for you. Lovely. Or better yet, can you change the whole PC instead?

What a cruel world we live in. People don’t really care about each other anymore nor do they? I still remember those day where… whatever. I love to write craps.

Vivaciously, there is something that really got me smiling all day long and keeps me out from thinking about my PC. You can’t ever be too cautious when there is something that involves feelings, emotions and the like. Am I cautious? No, I’m not. A scorpion is well known for its risk taking, heart not mind when it comes to decision making. Still I am not that sure to take it to the next step forward too fast. Maybe… maybe not.

Confuse, confuse, confuse!!!

Today i have to spent most of my time in the parliament eventhough that I am still burden with all the ministry’s Sambutan Hari Kualiti. Its quite fun to be in the Dewan Rakyat today witnessing first hand how do the MPs acting like a bunch of 10 years old making fun of a another person in the class. I slept for about a few hours until I was suprised with sound of the bell in the Dewan Rakyat.

I met my friend Nizam who is incharge of the Parliamentary affairs and he was very helpful as well, thanks Nizam for that fine teh ‘o’ panas that cost you RM2.00. Its quite weird when you met all the MPs in the parliament, some of them that I met is Dato’ M Kayveas, Datuk Mohd Noh, Lim Kit Siang just to name a few. Most of them seems to be very fierce during the parliamentary session, but they ain’t actually.

I got a sms from a friend written "Life is short, don’t make it shorter-pesanan untuk smokers".  Thanks God its end with a plural, or else it is directly for me. Well, anyway why should we worried whether our life is short or not. We will die sooner or later. I still remember a saying, " Nothing is certain in life except for death and taxes". Nay, we live only once, heart and soul. Don’t limit yourselves, live your life to the fullest and enjoy your stay.

As for now, I want to spend the rest of the day pretending that I’m not thinking about someone.